Day 4 Green goo running down the kitchen cabinets

Hope a great day was had by all.

Today has been a good day. Even though it is a holiday at my house, I kept my eating within reason. Spent good time with my children/grandchildren.  The day started out crazy, though.

I did not get to bed till really late last night.  But I did mange about 5 hours..not too awful bad.  I get up this morning and put a couple chickens into the oven to roast for the family get together later and get ready to juice and make a green smoothie this morning for me and..I almost could not believe she asked..my youngest daughter.  So I get all the veggies out and prepped.  Juice them into what my oldest daughter calls "mom's pimp cup" and get out my blender to add the chopped bananas and make our smoothies.  Ever the multi-tasker, I was also watching a video with my laptop on the dining room table.

I had not used my blender since last summer and I guess I was not really paying close attention during the blender assembly part...or I just did it wrong.  I have it put together and plugged in on the counter and I proceed to  pour my green elixer of the God's into the blender and flip it on when I suddenly find myself in a green rainstorm.  I was just stunned for a second or two, but I did finally shut the dang thing off.  My youngest daughter was in shock at first but was soon doubled over laughing.  I looked around with a heavy heart at all this green goo running down the cabinets and onto the floor.  I turned around and caught a glimpse of me spattered with green goo, as well, and suddenly I was laughing too.  We cleaned it up and ate yogurt with the 'nanners as I was out of a few of the ingredients to start the juicer up again.

If that had happened two weeks ago, I would have totally come unglued and the rest of the day would have felt ruined for me.

Guess I am doing a little better, still..;)

Accountability Day 3

Well, technically, it has run into day 4..but this post is about day three.  Long day, but good day.  Still on track, thankfully.  Had a wonderful day with my grand kids, youngest daughter and my son.  After my oldest daughter got off work we colored eggs with the kids and it has taken until after 1 in the morning to get all children to sleep so the Easter Bunny may do her thing.

We know that Easter, for us, is much bigger than the Easter Bunny.  So thankful that many, many years ago, a tomb where a dead man was placed and sealed shut, was found empty on the morning of the third day...

Checking out some new tools to help me on my way today.  Need more time to know more about them, but look promising.  I am just trying to be the most that I can be for myself and those who depend on me and if I can help others along the way, that makes me happy as well.  I have neglected my own well being most of my adult life.  I have patched myself with the easiest things available and ignored my own true needs because that is what I thought I should do.  It worked for the short term, most of the time.  But over time it has taken a great toll on me.  It has negatively impacted my physical and emotional health and my financial situation as a result.  I just want to do better.  I am finally believing, and not just thinking, that I deserve to treat myself better.

It hasn't been easy being me, lol.

Accountability Day 2

Nothing spectacular going on this day, other than I remain focused on my path of self renewal.  That, in itself, is kind of noteworthy..at least it is to me.

I have been researching juicing for a little while now.  I like the perceived benefits that I have read can be attained through this method of nutritional support.  I bought a juicer about a month and a half ago..spent more money than I was comfortable with and ended up taking it back the next day.  I just thought maybe it wasn't for me.

Well last week I bought one for 10 bucks online from a local resale site that a good friend of mine brought to my attention.  I have come to find in the past 48 hours it is actually a pretty good juicer.  And so I am trying this method to help bring better health into my life.  I do feel better.  More energy.  Calmer.  My brain has been steadily moving out of the fog it has been hiding in for the past year or so.  I lost 7 lbs in two days and I am not juice fasting.  Just replacing one meal with a veggie juice.

Maybe there is something to this thing.  When I got up this morning and was getting ready for work, I decided not to juice..just because it is a pain in the rear to clean the juicer out after and I didn't want to get behind and feel rushed before work.  I crave that juice all morning.  Once I finished my shift and took my kid to her doc appointment and made it home.  Juicing was the first thing I did.  Maybe I will develop a healthy addiction..that would be a first..

Accountability, Day 1

I have enjoyed this day.

That is not a huge statement..but, yet it is.

I have not said nor felt that in a long time.  I slept 5 hours last night.  Much better than the 3 I have been averaging for longer than I care to admit.  I have juiced and eaten clean today.  I have felt well. I feel a sense of renewal.  I have ran and jumped and played and laughed and hugged and smiled.  I was present and engaged every moment of this day and it has been wonderful.

I am grateful and full of peace as at this very moment in time, all in my world is right and good. I am not worried about tomorrow or next week or about what is going on anywhere on earth, but that which immediately sustains me right now.

Baby steps...

A New Start

This is short and sweet and mostly for myself.  If anyone who happens across my wild meanderings and are able to walk away with something out of it, all the better in a big picture sort of way, but that is not a particular goal for me at this point.

Today marks a new beginning for me in every aspect of my existence.  I am not making a list of plans as I think they should be.  I set my self up to fail when I do that.  I am going to resurrect and use what common sense God has given me and watch and listen for His call in an attempt to find just what it is that I am here for.

Day 1 commences...now.

Right now..

Right now this is just where life has brought me to. These are not my words, but I could not possibly define and express my perceptions of the world and my journey through it any better than this...



“If I have learned anything from life, it’s that sometimes, the darkest times can bring us to the brightest places.

I have learned that the most toxic people can teach us the most important lessons; that our most painful struggles can grant us the most necessary growth; and that the most heartbreaking losses of friendship and love can make room for the most wonderful people. 

I have learned that what seems like a curse in the moment can actually be a blessing, and that what seems like the end of the road is actually just the discovery that we are meant to travel down a different path.


I have learned that no matter how difficult things seem, there is always hope. And I have learned that no matter how powerless we feel or how horrible things seem, we can’t give up. 

We have to keep going. Even when it’s scary, even when all of our strength seems gone, we have to keep picking ourselves back up and moving forward, because whatever we’re battling in the moment, it will pass, and we will make it through. We have made it this far. We can make it through whatever comes next.”


~~Daniell Koepke